Almost exactly a year ago I wrote a blog post called In Sickness and in Health. It was from when I had bacterial strep and how Christopher lovingly cared for me during that time. Here’s a direct quote from that post in response to the first time I saw myself in the mirror:
My crazy hair, pale gaunt face, and chapped lips stared back at me. I shuddered a little and wondered how it is that my sweet husband had been able to look at me so tenderly all week. That’s what love does, I think. They say love is blind and sometimes I think there’s truth to that statement. I may have been appalled by what I saw in the mirror, but Christopher wasn’t. He just saw his bride.
Over the years that we have been together, we have cared for each other through many, many sick days. And it really amazes me how much those days and nights foster so much tenderness. My heart swells with how much I love Christopher already. It’s hard to imagine that I could love him any more than I do today. But looking back I can see how my love for him has grown steadily year by year. With each shared experience, with each adventure, with each tender moment of care for each other… our love grows.
In a tradition that Christopher started our first year of marriage, we write notes back and forth to each other on our bathroom mirror. Sometimes we’ll go months without writing something and sometimes we’ll write something new every day for a week. It just depends. This past week I was reorganizing our bathroom (hello, a full week off work at home – lots got done around the house, haha!) and when I came across our dry erase marker I decided to write the phrase we always say to each other. One of us always starts with “I love you” and the other always responds with “I love you more”. I don’t remember when that started or why, but “I love you more” has been a huge part of our vernacular for several years. So that’s what I wrote on the mirror. Not expecting a response because I had essentially written the response. But two days later I walked into the bathroom and saw this:
It just filled my heart a little more. We’re not in competition over who loves whom more even though it may sound like it. It’s just a small way to remind each other that there is so much love between us. And weeks like this past one have added to the list of reasons we love each other. 🙂
For those who have been asking – Christopher continues to recover way ahead of schedule. PT is still going well and he’s already off crutches and out of his brace (except when he sleeps). He drove himself to work this morning which made me a little sad just because this week officially begins “everything back to normal” for us. I’m going to miss the 24/7 together, but I’m happy for him that he’s doing SO well. 🙂